2nd day of school in year 2 sem 2

today's a boring day. school's boring and all. life's as normal as usual. nothing special or interesting happened. the only thing i know is projects and test are going to appear lots of time in this life of mine. and i realised that i've lost my ability to write essays. i cant write continuous composition anymore. i cant come up with descriptive words nor organise my thoughts well, elaborate what i wanna express beautifully nor write in an interesting manner anymore!

following is something i agree with:
Sleep + social life = bad grades.
Good grades + sleep = no social life.
Good grades + social life = no sleep.

and i believe i belong to the 1st category.

and as usual, i'm indecisive. i couldn't decided if i should drop jap class or not. i mean like it would be a waste or money if i just drop it like that and it can't be refund. at the same time, i still hope that i can someday understand jap well, then speak it fluently and have the ability to write it. however, now i've totally no knowledge of it. i've returned what i've learnt totally back to teacher. everything is forgotten and all this while, i havent done well in jap lesson, test, exam, quizz. in fact, everything to do with the class! it's a total failure! what path should i take? what should i do? lost and in bewilderment. light please shine on me and brain power please come to me.